run to the fields of forever forgiving grace.

Writer's Block: Your Theme

Tue, 20 May 2008 13:31:57 GMT

My theme would be "Just the Way I Am(I'm Strange)" by Skye Sweetnam. That's just so me. I just don't care what people think. lol

entry 005

Sun, 11 May 2008 07:48:41 GMT

short entry, i think. just a thought i had to get out.

today at around 5 o'clock my family and i started hearing thunder-us already expecting thunderstorms all day- we turned on our local news and watched them issue warnings for tornados+storms for way north of us. we conversed messages with our good friends about the weather, because the storm over us, were storms over their area, which is in a different town, and it had rotation in it. our town was in the all clear.

no more than ten minutes later, after we hadn't even heard a single rumble or a single droplet of rain, in the past fifteen minutes, at least, the news man stated a storm had popped up, about to roll into our town. it was a severe thunderstorm. no rotation. nothing. so we were still okay.

and than less than three minutes later, the storm was rotating. storms rotate all the time in tornado alley, so we weren't too worried yet. a minute later they said they wouldn't be too surprised if they put our county under a warning, instead of our all day watch. this still, happens up to five times a year. we know how dangerous it can get, and all though god has always been with us and never have gotten anything too bad, we would seek shelter.

while my parents watched the weather, my sister and i grabbed the regular things we bring along with us to the shelter down the road. as i'm about to slip into my trusty converse and grab a jacket, my bible, my ipod and my cellphone, i heard my mother yell, "oh my god."

i ran out of my room and my mom was grabbed her phone frantically, her hands shaking, my dad listening intently to the weather. and i heard the weather man say something i've never heard in all my years of living in tornado alley: "tornado on the ground." it was just about to roll through our town as this all happened. it was a really fast storm, mind you.

my mom directed my sister and i to grab everything and anything that could protect us from the storm; blankets, pillows, sheets etc. etc.

i started freaking out as my sister and i sat in the hallway. i wasn't too bad, considering i used to scream and cry when tornado warnings happened.

my sister was trying her hardest to keep a hold of one of our dogs and get a hold of our close family friends, whom i've always thought of cousins, who were roaming around town, running errands.

i, for one, was directed to just stay calm and listen to what people told me.

we hadn't sat there for more than a few mintues before my mom was saying, "it's not a weak one, c(my dad)" and "oh god, oh god, oh god, look at it."

than the one that made me burst out into hysterics, which was the one that informed me that it was no more than a block away from my grandmother, whom i'm very close to.

my mom, still trying to get a hold of her, walked into the hallway to check on us and reassured us that even though she was freaking out, it would be alright, and that she wouldn't let it get to my sister and i.

my mom sat down with us as she tried to get a hold of my grandmother, and she finally picked up a minute later. in a short phone call, my mother told her own mother, to get into the tub with a bunch of pillows and blankets and curl up. at this point, the tornado was still on the ground.

we said our "i love you"'s to her over phone, scared to death that it would be the last and my mom hung up.

i yelled for my dad to get his butt in the hallway and turn the television up so we could hear it.

while my sister, who was now texting our family friends, who were stuck in jc penny's basment across town, my mom and i both silently told god over and over again to please, make it go back up; the tornado, meaning.

as we both said "amen", silently, the newscaster slowly said with a relieved sigh, "it's going back up. it's disapating."

i told god thank you over and over again and my father said that our town was in the all clear, two minutes later.

we got up and made our way back to the living room, all of us, so thankful of god being with us moments before.

the point to this story was three things, two things being obvious:
1) treasure your family, they are your life line, and when anything threatens to take that way from you, eat it. in the. butt.
2) although people think it's impossible, the WORST tornados can spin up in less than five minutes.
3) the main thing that left me at awe today..the fact that the tornado disapated moments after my mother and i bowed down to god and asked him to be with us, amazes me. i don't think that was a coincidence in the least bit. that was pure god. people can call me a lunatic, but god is all over. and as long as you pray, with all your heart and soul, if it's in his will..he will wave his hand of protection over you. god is awesome, full in, full out. how people can hear things like this or, experience things like this, and still say there is no god, is beyond me. you have to be very caught up in life, in the sidelines of it, to miss this.

oh, and that same tornado killed 2. wanna see a picture?

entry 004.

Tue, 22 Apr 2008 09:34:12 GMT

at the age of 17 there are only 16 songs i could never live without. & here they are by popular demand of me. (:
(yes, in particular order)
01. God is God - Steven Curits Chapman.
favorite lyric;;
"And the questions without answers,
come and paralyze the dancer.
So I stand here on this stage afraid to move,
afraid to fall.
Oh, but fall I must, on this truth that my life
has been formed from the dust.
God is God and I am not.."
02. Live High - Jason Mraz.
favorite lyric;;
"Live high
Live mighty
Live righteously
Takin it easy
Live high, live mighty
Live righteously.."
03. I Need You - Relient K.
favorite lyric;;
"I've dug up miles and miles of sand
searching for something I can't see
I've just got bruised and battered hands
and a sudden void inside of me
complete with walls I did create
from all the earth that I've displaced
a mess that I have made from what
I just let pile and pile up
I have not been abandoned
no I have not been
deserted and I have not been forgotten
woah, I need you
woah, I need you here I need you now, I need security somehow
woah, I need you like you would not believe
you're the only thing I want, cause you're everything, everything I need.."
04. Hallelujah - Caleb Chapman.
favorite lyric;;
"broken and complete.
defined and defeated
covered endlessly.
i was all of these.
but than there came a flood.
washed over all i was.
and covered me in the love of my father's arms.
hallelujah, our god saves.
hallelelujah, he saves.."
05. Lay Your Head Down - The Following.
favorite lyric;;
"lay your head down, let the silence breathe louder now.
rest in the fact that you don't have to act like a star to impress us.
we'll love you how you are.
lay your head down, know that the one who painted the sun,
and the stars in the sky, has knit you together,
so don't even try to hide, hide that face
run to the fields of forever forgiving grace.."
06. Your Love is Alive - Caleb Chapman.
favorite lyric;;
"here lies my heart, beating for you to keep.
captured by love.
raptured to think your singing a song for me.
poured from heaven.
flooding my heart.
open my eyes to see.
your love is alive.
your love is alive.
your love is alive, it makes me sing."
07. Never Underestimate My Jesus - Relient K.
favorite lyric;;
"Never underestimate my Jesus
your tellin me that there's no hope
Im tellin you your wrong
Never underestimate my Jesus
when the world around you crumbles
He will be strong he will be strong
I throw up my hands
oh the impossibilities
Frustrated and tired
Where do I go from here?
Now Im searchin' for
The confidence I lost so willingly
Overcoming these obstacles
Is overcoming my fears.."
08. The Face of Love - Sanctus Real.
favorite lyric;;
"You are the face that changed the whole world
No one too lost for you to love
No one too low for you to serve
So give us the grace to change the world
No one too lost for me to love
No one too low for me to serve.."
09. Who We Truley Are - Florez.
favorite lyric;;
"Behind the smiles and laughing eyes
Trendy quotes and movie lines
My soul speaks what my lips try to hide
I've become what I despise
And if I acted honestly, how would the world respond to me
How long till they're all onto me
Till they find out all thats wrong with me
Every now and then I come around again
And all I've hidden, I wish would be found
If I trust someone long enough to let it out

To be known deeply
To be seen truly
To be loved passionately
Complete with all my victories and all my defeats
All my scars and all my beauty marks
This is who we truly are.."
10. A Little Bit Longer(You Don't Even Know) - Jonas Brothers.
favorite lyric;;
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11. We're Trying - Sanctus Real.
12. You Are Being Loved - Steven Curtis Chapman.
13. Stop This Train - John Mayer.
14. Somewhere Tonight - Warren Barfield.
15. Sound of Melodies - Leeland.
16. Your's - Steven Curtis Chapman.